I love a tidy, organized house. My husband, who although appreciates an organized house, is definitely the creative of the family and doesn't mind a little mess if his creative outlets are flowing. It wasn't until God gave us our little shop, https://www.etsy.com/shop/sonofwhale?ref=pr_shop_more that Mark has taken over the garage. And I mean taken over. It is one, big woodworking shop out there. No room for cars anymore. I promise, there is an inch of saw dust everywhere. I can't stand the mess. I just like to shut the door and pretend it's not there. But, for my husband, that is where he creates and invents all sorts of things that ultimately is bringing our daughter home. We've had people ask to see the "shop". I tell them, "you don't want to see it". And it's really me who doesn't want people to see it because I think it's too messy. It wasn't until a very wise friend told us one day (love you Amber), "you know, you better be taking pictures of all this." I told her she was crazy because I didn't want to remember this mess! But then, she said the most profound thing, "when your daughter gets older, you can show her the hours upon hours, the sweat and tears, the prayers, care and LOVE that went into making each letter, table, cross, etc. all to bring her home." WOW. She was right. This mess that I have swept up, cleaned up, tried to hide, is how God is bringing our sweet girl home. I now embrace that mess. I photograph it. I want our sweet girl to know all the time we spent waiting and working to bring her home.
It made me think, so many times, I say I am a mess too! I think I'm not good enough for God. And that is when God quietly and tenderly, like He can only do, says, "Melissa, I want you and all your mess." He wants all of me. All the junk that I want to try and "fix" before going to Him, when all he wants is me. And all He wants is YOU. Not perfect. Just willing. Just You.
So now, I embrace my mess. Ya'll I can be a mess. That mess is my life. And my life for GOD'S glory. He took my mess and He made it good. I see God's hand making my mess something He adores and sings about.
Zephaniah 3:17
The Lord your God is with you,
the Mighty Warrior who saves.He will take great delight in you;
in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
but will rejoice over you with singing.”
Oh and here is a picture. Told you I am embracing it. Since this picture, it has gotten a lot more organized. For father's day, Mark got organization stuff for the garage...
Still a mess, but organized. :)
PS.. For those of you wondering, we are #12 on the list. Just waiting for that phone call for our referral. :)
